Author: Jill

Terra firma

Our family had the big old 2020 Covid scare.  Each case of the illness is unique but I’m sure most of you are familiar with the process.  So-and-so was near such and such who had dinner with you-know-who, who then tested positive for Covid. Do I have it now? Who have I been near? Will it be a bad case or a minor one if I do get it? Test, quarantine, wait, hope and try not to be too scared of the worst case scenario. This is our second scare and I was mainly thinking about death whereas my son...

Options

I was so triggered. The words were, “I didn’t have a choice.” Realistically, there are many, many things we do not choose in life. We do not choose where and when we are born or who we are born to. Consequently, we do not choose what genes are in our DNA. We do not choose our innate personality traits. We do not really choose our survival patterns; we unconsciously grew those as we needed them. We do not consciously choose quite a bit of what drives us on a daily basis. Generally, something was modeled to us when we were...

Illusions

Yeah I was crying. Telling God, “I am such an idiot!” Then I remembered someone sending me this meme, “When God put a calling on your life, He factored in your stupidity.” Well, good.  I like the shrinks who proclaim that “Human beings are works in progress who mistakenly think they are done” (Gilbert).  Because I was wrong, I’ve been wrong before, and I will be wrong again.  Being an idiot at times is to be human, that is reality.  My problem is that I don’t want to be an idiot.  I want to cruise through life getting stuff right...