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Hungry Caterpillars

He wasn’t suicidal, but he did say, “I don’t want to live anymore.” It made me wonder how many other people have had this thought and if it defines a moment of feeling overwhelmed by the hurt that comes with living, rather than a wish to die.  If so, me too baby, me too. I do believe that life is a gift, but it’s just damn weird that such a gift comes with so much hurting. No matter all the loving experiences, and all the hopeful thinking and all the material success, nothing changes the fact that living includes hurting. ...



I was so triggered. The words were, “I didn’t have a choice.” Realistically, there are many, many things we do not choose in life. We do not choose where and when we are born or who we are born to. Consequently, we do not choose what genes are in our DNA. We do not choose our innate personality traits. We do not really choose our survival patterns; we unconsciously grew those as we needed them. We do not consciously choose quite a bit of what drives us on a daily basis. Generally, something was modeled to us when we were...



Yeah I was crying. Telling God, “I am such an idiot!” Then I remembered someone sending me this meme, “When God put a calling on your life, He factored in your stupidity.” Well, good.  I like the shrinks who proclaim that “Human beings are works in progress who mistakenly think they are done” (Gilbert).  Because I was wrong, I’ve been wrong before, and I will be wrong again.  Being an idiot at times is to be human, that is reality.  My problem is that I don’t want to be an idiot.  I want to cruise through life getting stuff right...