Monthly Archive: October 2018

IRL

I love social media. I have met some kickass people who loved me from a distance, or through their art, or intelligence or vulnerability or smiley faces during a shit hard time in my real life. I wouldn’t exchange them. Oh geez, nothing out of the ordinary that I’d need a “go fund me” for, but a shake up. That being said, I feel fortunate that it wasn’t around when I was a kid. Real life is hard enough as a teen, without a constant barrage of more things to think about. As an adult, I have been accused of...

Control

“You think it is easier, to know your own tricks, well it’s the hardest thing you’ll ever do. You’d think it’s easier to put your finger on the trouble, when the trouble is you.”  U2, The Troubles I can’t decide if I’m onto something good or if I’ve figured out a way to feel more in control of my life. My personality type is one that is always searching for the meaning of life.  The type who regularly hears, “Stop worrying about it, just live!  You think too much!  You’re too sensitive! Chill out!” Before now, I believed that finding...

Chaos

I have spent most of my adult life trying to maintain order. The actions of fixing, arranging, classifying, cataloging, systemizing, and cleaning come to mind. I have spent many years trying to teach my kids the same skills. I don’t actually know anyone who hasn’t been doing that. Practically speaking, life is spent creating and maintaining order. Keeping order is a highly valued trait and skill. We have reams of choices that we are encouraged to follow to find success, get our needs met, and enjoy life in comfort. When we succeed, it makes us feel powerful. Our interior lives are no...