Category: Challenges

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Fear of Pain

I’ve had three C-Sections in my life. One thing the doctors said about recovery was to take pain medicine before the pain hit hard. During those recoveries, I learned that pain meds, in and of themselves, do not help the body heal. In the C-Section case, they take the edge off so a girl will be willing to sit up and walk around. The movement of the muscles is what helps the body heal. Those were years ago and thankfully I’ve not had to have any other major surgeries, or been injured. Just recently I did have a very minor...

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Take Heed

When my third child, Bryson, was born, the other two boys were eight and six. One day the oldest came to me and said, “I know Bryson is the most important person in the family right now…” I don’t know what he was going to say because I didn’t let him finish! I explained that Bryson needed the most time and attention because he was a baby, not because he was more valuable than anyone else in the family. Recently, at fourteen, Bryson said something similar about the eldest! “Mom, he is getting what he wants and no one cares...

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Integrity

God, I hate it when I fuck up. I am a reformed perfectionist and have spent much soul-searching time to accept my threads of good and bad qualities. Yet, I still feel like Jane Eyre when I bollix it up. “Gentle reader, may you never feel what I then felt? May your eyes never shed such stormy, scalding, heart-wrung tears as poured from mine.  May you never appeal to Heaven in prayers so hopeless and so agonized as in that hour left my lips; for never may you, like me, dread to be the instrument of evil to what you...